Thursday, November 15, 2012

Rejuvenation


All I needed was time to heal.  Yes, I had physical pain from a very bad case

of gout.  And I realized that it was my own fault.  It can be 2:00 in the 

afternoon and it will dawn on me that all I have had to drink is half of a venti

iced green tea.  Equivalent to maybe 12 oz. of liquid!  I can't do that or the

uric acid builds up in my system. Well, blah..blah... blah.... you can surmise

the rest!  Nine days of hobbling around as the pain slowly receded.



But I also was reeling from mental angst.  I was going through a spell of

situations where negativity seemed aimed at me. Try as I might to dodge

the bullets, I was an open target.  Should I fight back?  Tried that before

but somehow they got the memo to wear deflective clothing at all times.

Yes, in their minds,  I'm the one being too sensitive or worse ~ just totally

wrong!!  I'll tell you, my neck was getting sore from turning the other cheek

over and over again.



I was really getting to a point where I was doubting everything.  Am I really

creative or just kind of?  Is my blog good enough for others to enjoy or

am I just banging away on the keyboard to only hear crickets in blogland?

Is any of this worth it as it seems so many others have grabbed at the brass

ring and got it!  WOW!!  Did I needed to shake this off or what?!  I realized 

that I had become a "super sponge" and was absorbing all the negativity

 coming my way.. whether it was physical or personal.  How did I allow this to

 happen??  



 Thankfully, I was sent an angel my way who saw the place where I was at

and encouraged me to stick to my plan of attending an art event in California.

Even though mentally I was hurting, my foot had finally repaired itself.

I packed art supplies and clothes and flew to sunny CA... a place where I

always say my soul belongs.  That should have been a big sign right there!

My destination was an art event called, Spellbound.  Produced by the 

dynamic duo of Shea Fragoso and her mother, Debbie Murray.... two women,

who, through hard work, perseverance, and bucket loads of talent, have

taken the creative world by storm.  Attendees were treated to a luxury

hotel, two days (and one night) of classes taught by top-notch instructors,

and most importantly... most importantly, friends, old and new!




I was thirsty for a loooong dose of friendship.  I needed to drink at 

the fountain of caring, supportive people who got me.. and I them!

And drink, I did.  We helped each other in classes where we were acquiring

new skills.  We shot big, genuine, welcoming smiles in each other's direction.

We listened to each other tell stories of what we had been doing since last

we were together. New friends were added to old and we welcomed them 

with open arms.  I love these women... I love these adventures!


I was now satiated and content.  Returning home, and after I unpacked

my suitcases, I turned to my husband and said, "Thank you!  No.... I don't

mean it in the respect that I need your permission or approval to go on

my adventures.  (We don't have that kind of relationship). I just mean, "thank

you" for understanding that I need to get away sometimes.  I just mean,

"thank you" for appreciating who I am."

The corners of his mouth turned up as he looked at me and smiled.  

"You just always come home happier and I like that!"

As we hugged, I squeezed him just a bit tighter.  Am I blessed or what??!!

24 comments:

  1. Yes you are blessed, and I'm even more blessed to have you in my life. Go for all life has to offer. You don't get a second chance, and at the end of the day, who cares about the naysayers. You are smart, talented, and lovely. xoxo Kadee!

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    1. Oh, Tippy! I'm so glad you can get on now! I so appreciate and love you! Thanks for always being there for me. I thought of you when I took this class with Kristen Robinson... such a sweet person! What I took away is that I want to practice soldering links for chain. Time to get settled and follow through!
      xoxo

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  2. Oh Kadee, no crickets here! I am so happy for you and your much needed blast of happiness. It is indeed fulfilling to find your people! That is exactly what happened to me about 7 years ago when I first discovered blogs, and started getting out into this big, wide creative circle. I have met fabulous women who will be life long friends! Forget about those who drain you, make you feel bad, and remind you of the mean girls in high school. Unfortunately they are around as well. No but find the good, and stick with them, cultivate those friendships and go happily forward making art, and sharing good times!
    xoxoDede

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    1. Wow! Such sage advice! You are one of my "new" friends that I am so thrilled to call you that!!! Art Is.... gave me so many great memories and you are one of those. Thanks for your sweet words that I will remember whenever I get bogged down again. And I can't wait to do another event together. We can catch up on Real Housewives of NJ!!!!

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  3. Kadee, I am feeling that same need right now. So glad you could attend Spellbound. I was truly missing all of you girls and the creative inspiration I always find when I go to those events. Just wasn't in the budget this year! Hopefully soon!

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    1. I so get the cost issue!! They are expensive! What has helped is finding a roommate to split the cost of room and meals. You sure are missed, Alanna, and I hope we get to do another one soon!!!

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  4. Kadee - Gout sucks! And that pain overwhelms and debilitates. Which leaves you open to other debilitating inability to not let everything get to you. It is all about the water (and when your foot is hurting you don't want to get up and get the water)- so keep it out and drink often. Get the cherry juice (sweet JoAnn brought a jug to the airport when she picked me up for our reunion!) and the cherry extract pills - just as a daily prophylactic measure (I love to use that word - I'm so sophomoric) when you are not in the middle of an attack. I'm so glad you got away and got restored. Mental health is as important as physical. And how absolutely wonderful your husband's understanding. Life is good Miss Lou - stay well.

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    1. Gay, I hate saying I have gout! It sounds so Ben Franklin-ish!!! LOL I am going to a rheumatologist in a couple of weeks to see what's up. I had no idea you suffered from it! It is truly a PAIN! Have you ever tried diluting apple cider vinegar in water? I read that one online and trust me, it is horrible!! Cherry juice is so much better. Love hearing from you, as always!

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  5. LOVE love love this post! No crickets from my end! I am SO bummed that I missed out on Spellbound. I'll be there next time for sure! XOXO

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    1. Thanks so much, Heather, for responding! It means the world to me! You have your hands full this year with that beautiful family of yours so hopefully next year things will ease up. And I'm so happy you are doing so well!!! You are a great mom... don't ever forget that!
      xoxo

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  6. Hi Kadee, so sorry that you experience the pain of gout. I have cared for many patients with it and know how terribly they hurt. I am glad you got away to Spellbound and now feel renewed. It is easy when blogging to compare ourselves to these star bloggers who do it full time. I tell myself all the time that I am only competing with myself and today I am going to take a better photo than yesterday. Also I have made so many friends in the past three years. Plus I do not get focused on the numbers. That will get you down. I Focus on the joy involved in the meeting of kindred spirits. I wish you and yours a Happy Thanksgiving, Olive

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  7. You are so right about the numbers issue. Although I have to admit I would love to achieve 500 followers. Not thousands. Just that number and I don't know why that resonates with me. However, when I say that I feel like it's about the numbers and not the people behind it. And never in a million years would I ever want to insult those that have chosen to visit me! Soooooo... with that said, you're right! It is NOT about the numbers but getting to make new friends! So glad I can count you as one of them!!!!! Gobble, gobble!!! Happy turkey day!!!

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  8. My dear friend...I love you, I love your blog and I love that I can call you friend. So very glad you got your little self to California and brought that big beautiful smile. Besides, you had to get there and bring your flowers for the swap. Don't tell the others...but, it was my favorite. It was a great time, in a grand place planned by Shea & Debbie. We are so blessed to attend these events and experience them. Keep writing. I would give anything to be able to write like you. Take care of that puppy and most of all...take care of yourself. Hugs! Your Okie Friend, T

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    1. All I remember about being there with you is just looking across and seeing you grin as big as I was grinning back at you! I was so very happy to see you again... too long between visits!! You are such a dear and I appreciate your sweet, heartfelt words. That means the world to me! And yes, I am blessed to call you my friend, too! With that personality, no wonder you are blowing your area away selling homes and staging them! Who could resist??!! And right back at you with the flower. Yours was amazing and I love the color you choose. Just gorgeous! So ..... what's the next event??

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  9. I guess I should add rejuvenate to my list of recycling, re-purposing and reusing lol... sounds like it did you wonders :-)
    big hugs~

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    1. It sure did, Cheryl! And to think I was so dragging my feet just to get on the plane. I think being around people who "get you" is so important!

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  10. Awwww, your husband sounds like mine.what a doll! I get horrible cramps at night if I don't drink a ton of water everyday.
    So glad that you got the mental relief you needed and deserve!
    xo
    Lynn

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    1. Amazing how just a little thing (like not drinking enough water) can create such havoc! And lucky you to have such a fabulous husband... cannot imagine life without the right partner, can you?!

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  11. Those arty getaways are so good for the soul!

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    1. So very true! One day I want to attend one of your events, Karla! You do such a fantastic job of making things so festive and fun!

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  12. i have been feeling JUST THE SAME WAY and it is dragging me down...to the point of wanting to give up - how can that be? So glad to read your story - maybe I will give it just a bit more time...a little more hope and a huge dose of extra prayers....
    thank YOU for saying what I could not.
    xo
    rae

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    1. Rae, always remember that what you do is so incredible! Your talents are such a blessing and those that receive one of your creative treasures is blessed! If you ever need a boost, just email me. Sometimes we can get so mired down in our own thoughts (some misguided) that someone from the outside, with a true perspective, can set us straight again. I adore what you do and know the hard work and love you put into each piece. Remember, these words are coming from your No.1 fan!!!!!

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  13. Kadee, you're very brave. At least you are writing your blog and sharing your creativity and beauty with the world. I procrastinate, second guess myself and end up not blogging and feeling guilty about it. You are working towards your goal, and the rest of us get to enjoy the fruits of your labors.

    So glad to hear you had a great time at Spellbound!

    Hugs to you! Miss you!

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    1. I miss you, too! I think one of my biggest obstacles I face in this blogging world is getting my name out there and that is so important. It takes a lot of work to do so and I'm not very good at doing it ALL. I do love to write and figure out what photos will complement the story and that fulfills a huge goal of mine. So, I will keep plugging away and will be so very, very grateful to those that have chosen to follow me. One of the big reasons I keep at it!!

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